Win

THIS IS SO AWESOME.

Just when I thought my life was falling apart, I completely surpassed my wildest expectations.

This is a night for smiling, even if there's a hint of blood on my teeth.

Wow... this was a hard kick. Right between my already broken ribs.

I don't know what will come of this.

I am lonely once again.

Slow

''She was compelled by a confessional fever which forced her into lifting a corner of the veil and then frightened her when anyone listened too attentively.''

- Anais Nin, A Spy in the House of Love

...

This was a book I deeply enjoyed reading, not so much for the content itself as for the pure aesthicity (if this is, indeed, a word) of the writing.

Also, I've noticed that my bookshelf is slowly giving in to the weight of the books.

As much as I like the thought of this, scattered books and broken wood do not excite me enough to be willing to see it happen.

I guess.

Black

''I hurt myself today

to see if I still feel''

...

This

... is so fucked up.

All I want is to be needed and to be loved - not for what I might or could have been but for what I am, even if that is so far from perfection it shouldn't even exist.

I just want to be someone, not no one.

And I am sick and tired of people calling themselves my friends. You're not a friend if you can't stand being pushed away.

The

I had seven faces
Thought I new which one to wear
But I'm sick of spending these lonely nights
Training myself not to care

...

NEW YORK CARES.

- Interpol: NYC

I'm just so sad right now. I wish I wouldn't be wishing for this for as long as I do.

I wish I could be there right now.

I wish changes could happen with a snap of fingers.

I wish I wouldn't be so unhappy with everything and everyone.

I wish I could be an exception.

But all I have are these books with empty pages that are falling on top of me and smothering me with their blankness. I'm swallowing static and sucking on air.

Tree

Right now, I'd do anything to go back to this particular moment in time.

Prague was so beautiful.