Tuesday, September 14, 2010


... is so fucked up.
All I want is to be needed and to be loved - not for what I might or could have been but for what I am, even if that is so far from perfection it shouldn't even exist.

I just want to be someone, not no one.
And I am sick and tired of people calling themselves my friends. You're not a friend if you can't stand being pushed away.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


I had seven faces
Thought I new which one to wear
But I'm sick of spending these lonely nights
Training myself not to care
- Interpol: NYC

I'm just so sad right now. I wish I wouldn't be wishing for this for as long as I do.
I wish I could be there right now.
I wish changes could happen with a snap of fingers.
I wish I wouldn't be so unhappy with everything and everyone.
I wish I could be an exception.

But all I have are these books with empty pages that are falling on top of me and smothering me with their blankness. I'm swallowing static and sucking on air.

Thursday, September 2, 2010


Right now, I'd do anything to go back to this particular moment in time.
Prague was so beautiful.